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Love
(June 2nd 2004, Wednesday)

i learned early on
you never win
even if you think you have
because its an on going game

love is a challenge
a loss, and a gain
you play it for the pleasure
and quit it for the pain

it may cause your heart to break
your heart to fly and fall
but no matter what
loves the best game of them all

you think youve got it figured out
your only half way there
the feeling in your heart now
is something like despair

you want the good feelings to last
the bad ones to refrain
from entering your heart and mind
over and over again

you long to find true love
something to be admired
but even tho you try
you heart keeps ending up on fire

the pain rises to greet you
the joy it kneels down
away from you as you fall
just before you hit the ground

you realize your problem
you decide to run away
from the hurt and from the pain
run forever and a day

you face another challenge
getting over them
you loved and lost one more time
it happeneds again and again

you try to curb the pain
your taste for love and lust
you are determined to find it
your motto: find true love or bust

the pain is now a hollow
eating you alive
you lay there being swallowed
trying not to cry

your mind tells you to stop
before it is to late
you open your mouth to scream
but the silience stops the rage

its been two months
the pain is vanishing
finally dispersing
leaving, going away

you desire to call your love
to return to you again
but you decide best not
and say just in case

just in case the pain returns
to set your heart aflame
and watch it as it burns
to ashes once again

you think youve got it down
you think you know the truth
your wrong you know
its over, buried in the words

the words they speak to you
when you fall in love
the words hidden below the earth
when you say i love you

i love you, i hate you
you know that its the truth
when i say i love you
please forgive my words

i cry because i love you
because the pain is real
because i need to show you
just exactly how i feel

im going to finish speaking now
in hopes you understand
they way i feel inside for you
when i touch your hand...

life

all of its useless
none of it works
theres all the cons
and then all the perks

i wish i knew
just what was real
but nothing makes sense
thats part of the deal

the world of reality
the world of deciet
the point of this test
is to stay on your feet

if you could see the hurt
and all of the pain
would your reality
still be the same

the deciet is the lies
the money the wealth
all of its pointless
it just creates hell

when life becomes pleasent
you must be forewarned
the pain and the anger
will knock soon at your door

we hear them speaking
but dont understand
all of the wars
that surround our land

life is a gift
a blessing a curse
nothing make sense
thats just how it works

this may be the end
or just the beginning
but fear not the future
fear only the stories

people may tell you
all is safe for a while
but caution the fear
beware the deceit

stay true to yourself
believe what you want
but still be precatious
of everything everywhere,
even the smallest

The One
(Justins Poem)
I see you standing there
you stand out to me
for i feel in my heart
that you will always be
the one i want to be with
the one that i hold dear
the one that i love
i see you again
more desireable than before
i wisper in your ear
that you are the one
that i want you
that i need you
that ill hold you
forever
until we part
tho i kno well be together
in heaven
faintly i notice
im already there
your shining eyes
and silky black hair
you whisper back
i love you too
then i see
just how much you care
you part your lips
but the sound stops there
i kiss you and feel
inside i kno
you are the one
and ill never let go...

©August 5th 2004, 450am
Kristina Krapec

Eternity
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 (145 am)

Its me against my sanity
The battle never ends
Im bleeding out my pain
Thru tears of crimson red

The fight is never ending
Its tearing me apart
I love the high
I hate the low
Im living in the dark

I am just a girl
A very intriguing creature
Indecisive, complicated
And contritactly ill

The pain is slowly driving me
Down into the dark
The depths of insanity
Creep into my heart

I feel you near me
Calling to me
Begging me
to return to you

youve emptied out your soul
and now youll have to pay
you will burn in hell
for eternity and a day

you decide to reclaim
what was taken
what was lost within the holes
of darkness fear and pain

you risk whats left of your life
to enter the frightening space
to crawl upon the brimstone
the racism and the hate

the others cry out for love
respect desire and need
I see you wandering aimlessly
Also in great need

You see me trying to help
And you struggle to respond
And as you linger in the shadows
The hate creeps back upon

It touches you in ways
You fear of being seen
You handle life with care
Careful to not mistreat

The gentle wind continues
Blowing by your side
You see me come upon your shadow
but I remain a smidge too long

You stop your endless raving
To hold me so I belong
The tears start to disappear
And I am finally whole

You want me to stay here
In you arms below
But I decide to leave
Your tears are flowing heavily

You shall come with me
And well shall live
Together...
For eternity.....

Tortured Night
June 14th 2004
136 am

the pain has taken me over
the release i crave is gone
i need you tho you dont see me
what have i done wrong

theres nothing i can see
that doesnt remind me
of the times that were good
of the times that were bad

im so lost now
im losing everything
my sanity my will
my thots and my entirety

i long to hold you in my arms
and remember life
the way it was and the way
that it should have been

but this is obviously
the way that it was meant
to be with you and i
life thats never ending

i cease to find the truth
behind your broken eyes
im longing to find the truth
hidden between the lies

the pain i feel is real
the life that stops and starts
it send me in a tailspin
when we are apart

i wish i could understand
just what your purpose is
because im losing track
of all that was and is

i need to see you here
infront of my eyes
to try and unlock the puzzle
that lies behind your eyes

behind your eyes
and into your mind
is where i desire to go
and wander and search

so that i may open the lock
that hides your life from me
your life your love your everything
that lies behind locked doors

i wish i could find out
and enter the depths
that are haunting you
and leaving me here alone

i wish to know
what makes you turn
what keeps you ticking
and leaves you to burn

the feelings in me
are pain and compassion
what do you see me as
am i an assasin

i wont hurt you
i merely wish
to look upon your soul
and find out why your hiding

why youve hidden yourself
away from the light
and the pain and the joy
and the sorrow of life

i shall continue
another time
the pain is returning
but its not the right time

but i fear not
for i still see the light
off in the distance
of my tortured night...


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